And nothing...

Posts almost everyday and then nothing. Ooh, kind of like my application to UK process. So much to do and now just waiting. It's crazy! I got all excited about the Bristol interview and submitting this and that and now this waiting is agony. More so because NOTHING happens over the weekend.



The Indian exam registrations are also opening up and I've already applied to Manipal for medical and I'm thinking of applying for biotechnology as well. Not that I'm thinking of doing human medicine at all but just as a practice for the aipvt. It'll be useful because I know I will study and revise 4-5 times this way before sitting for the pvt.

Honestly, I don't have much to say. I could just keep typing what I'm thinking like my best friend told me to I guess.



Parents don't really know how to help their children deal with the boards pressure in India do they? They say 'I know you can do it' or '96% se bhi kuch nahi hota' (you can't get anywhere even with a 96%) or even 'siraf X days bache hai beta' (only x days left) but what they don't seem to realize is rather than spurring us to study this just makes us feel the pressure even more. Personally, I've never had a day where my mother hasn't asked 'how much did you study today?'

It's my job mom, I know what I have to do. You don't need to remind me EVERYDAY that I have to study. Yeah I know what I'm doing is hard. Yes, you need amazing marks in India. Yes, I know it's competivtive. No, you reminding me again and again does not help. Yes, I know there are lacks of people giving the same exams I am. Yes, I know there are people who study 14 hours a day. Yes, I've seen how much the topper in my class studies. No, I haven't studied as much as they did.



Don't get me wrong, I know they're doing this for my good and I rarely (okay quite a bit) snap at my mother for asking the same things over and over but there has to be a point where they understand that they're not helping.

I really hope someday when I have kids I'll figure out a way to do things in a much better way. I know I'll never make my parent's mistakes. I love my parents of course but sometimes they're a bit too much. In India especially, children are expected to turn into robots for at least 6 months during their boards and get good grades as their output in the end.

I'm sorry I can't do that. I'm sorry I have to read books to keep sane. I'm sorry I can't stop going on 9gag. I'm sorry for wanting to watch a movie sometimes. I'm sorry for wanting to follow ONE series on TV. Most of all, I'm sorry for not being sorry at all.

Edinburgh WES Submitted

So last night I finished and submitted my Edinburgh WES. I hope the stuff I wrote in the additional comments is not irrelevant. It was also my mother's birthday yesterday so yay!



I'm currently sitting in my biology class and typing this. I'm pretty comfortable with biology, english and biotechnology but my physics and chemistry is weak. I really hope I can step up my marks because I really really want to get into Hisar. It would be a dream come true.



How about a little personal background?

So, I go to school and then an institution in the evening thrice a week. The institute helps me train for the entrance exams as well as helps me for my boards. In India, all competitive exams are crazy so special prep is definitely needed.

My best friend in the world is in school and is prepping for engineering.



I have some more close friends both in school and my institute. I'm close with both my parents but I'm more like my father in the way I think and behave. I have a younger brother who is pretty cool as far as younger brothers go. My two dogs are also an integral part of my family and I adore them. They're approaching 12 now and still quite healthy so I'm pretty happy.



The worst thing about my life is the crazy pressure the boards and entrance exams put on me. My worst fear is that I will not get into veterinary medicine anywhere and will have to do something else. My mom will probably never agree to me taking a gap year. People keep saying that college is bad but for somebody who is already used to working hard I don't think it'll be too bad.

Above all, I'm really really impatient to get the next leg of my life started even though I will really miss my school.